A nurse, I’ve learned to make note of small details. While doing so in line, I replayed the scene
I left moments before. Bedroom of a
dying man, calming blue, shag carpet preventing rolling of wheels, tension of
final breaths, year-long seconds, the three of us standing just outside heaven’s
door. Indescribable details! I left behind beautiful daughter laboring
hard to usher with honor Dad into new realm.
I saw full circle – parent who labored to bring child into the world,
lying silent helpless, as child labored to release parent out of this world
into life without limits. There I stood
in line, mascara tear-mingled, stinging and ringing my eyes, seeing myself
clearly behind patient and drugstore patron, separated by a mere vapor of time.
Open to God’s counsel in my weariness, I left the drugstore for a dear friend’s house where we watched the Breaking Free Session Six video. Heart riveted, God spoke, plunging me deep into well of living water, filling bone-dry vessel with refreshing drafts of His life, at the same time satisfying Himself in the act of fulfilling me!! He used John 4:1-18 to address my thirst for more, to point out why I had overreacted earlier in the day, beginning with paying the bills, fretting, feeling “robbed,” deceived, grappling for control. He reviewed with me my unsuccessful attempts at refueling and refilling my tired and thirsty soul lately. He exposed the true cost of impulsive behaviors, of earthly excess – no matter how seemingly harmless and acceptable. I repented and agreed, and then He revealed the lies Satan repeatedly hooks me with as well as the weakness of my own flesh prone to settling for low-calorie, all natural ingredients, quick fixes to emptiness and weariness. God comes to give abundant life – rich and filling, high in calories (fuel to burn), supernatural, with present and everlasting benefits. I’m not only speaking of food and drink here!!! Certainly you’ll agree, Dream Water is a far cry from Living Water, HE WHO FILLS AND SATISFIES US SO WE CAN REST.
The Lord capped off a wonderful night’s rest with dessert
this morning served up in the following Scriptures:
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and have
it to the full.” John 10:10
“You have made known to me the path of life; You will fill
me with joy in Your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand.” Psalm 16:11
“Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though
you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an
inexpressible and glorious joy.” I Peter
1:8
I pray my older sister back at the drugstore knows
INEXPRESSIBLE JOY, and that with each step toward heaven’s door she and I both
grow to love and believe Him more. Then
and only then will we be truly filled, our thirst quenched!!!
Drinking
Deep In His Shadow,